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While Joan Didion’s memoir “The Year Of Magical Thinking” didn’t really help me deal with the grieving process – which was by no means the intention in the first place –, I did however gain a better understanding of grief and the extreme denial that follows it. Grief comes in waves and paroxysms of anguish, both of which I can vouch for. Losing someone isn’t merely an acute sadness or an intensification of distinguishable emotions. Didion came to see that grief is a state of temporary insanity and mental illness, and I believe so too. Most of the time this so-called temporary insanity is easily concealed behind an apparently sane and controlled surface, as Didion asserted that grief was passive while mourning required attention. People constantly tell me that I seem so strong as if that’s the only thing that matters after a great personal loss, but truth be told I am incessantly engaging in illusional wishful thinking and other irrational patterns that yields to temporary treatment. I reckon that everybody who’s lost someone so near and dear has at some point experienced grief as insanity.


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unguessed-narrative said: Any more specific study tips? I get randomly stuck in some sort of homework sloth from time to time and it's driving me crazy!

Ideally, doing a little everyday goes a long way. But I know that sometimes shit happens and life just doesn’t allow you to follow this wont and all of a sudden, just a month before your exams, you’re facing a horrendous four-months worth of workload. A nightmare, right? I’ve been studying for my finals for a little more than a month now and I still have two weeks left. After a little while, I figured out a routine that works for me. I like to wake up early and make an energizing green smoothie to help get my day started right, followed by a brisk walk (if the weather’s nice – the case as of late) in the beautiful Frogner park next to my flat, which make me pumped up for studying. Taking longer breaks during my 12-hour marathon study session helps too. And I like to make pretty binders for my notes – combining handwritten design and schoolwork for the sake of remaining motivated and inspired. In addition, being organized is no doubt a cornerstone of being productive. 

I’ve found out that I’m much more productive whenever I study at the library but at times I find that a bit stressful because I get so exhausted from carrying everything I need for a normal day in the study hall. Studying at home can also be a nice change of scenery so that you don’t get stuck in a rut. 

Last but not least, listen to your body!!! The reason why I’m replying to your question now is that I’ve been stuck in this 12-hour marathon every day for a month or so. I don’t even take the weekends off and now my body is completely destroyed and burned out. 

Good luck studying :-)